Well, I am officially one week into logging food and paying attention to my "burn" numbers. I should be happy...I mean, really...I should, because I lost 3 pounds, but I am not happy.
See, I've lost those 3 pounds before. Yeah....seriously.
I got to 195 in November. Then I thought it would be OK to slack off, quit logging food, and ENJOY the holidays without restriction. And, at that time I was willing to take any weight gain consequences.
I weighed in on 1/1 at 205. Wow. Ten pounds of enjoyment. Ouch...that hurts. So, today I weighed in at 202. Which means by next Monday I should hit the coveted "Under 200".....again.
Now, if this story were a friend's story, I'd be all "It's OK...you're on the right track...don't beat yourself up over it....blah blah blah." And, I'd mean it. But I keep saying it to myself and I'm just not buying it. I just keep thinking "What a damned idiot...have I learned NOTHING?"
So, here I am, trying to not beat myself up over those 10 pounds, and happy that I'm back on track, back to logging my food, and back to eating fairly clean. I say fairly because I didn't log Saturday or Sunday. I wasn't horrible, but I wasn't perfect either. And maybe therein lies the balance.
I kinda feel like Dory in "Finding Nemo" when she's swimming along and singing "Just Keep Swimming....just keep swimming....just keep swimming aloooooooong".
One Day At A Time
One Meal At A Time
One Healthy Choice At A Time (actual choice, not the brand!)
Just keep swimming.....just keep swimming.....just keep swimming alooooooooong!
It's hard...there are no easy quick fix answers. We did this to ourselves over a period of time and now we're fixing it, but it's going to happen over TIME....not instantly. Yeah, I hate losing those 10 pounds again, and I really wish I was losing a new 10 pounds. But...I'm not, so I need to focus on 194 and be happy about where I got to in 2010. NOW is happening. The rest is just history.
Just keep swimming people!
PS...one last thing. Need proof that I'm crazy? Well, I ran a 5K on Saturday in 17 degree weather. DAMN it was COLD! I ran it in 38 minutes and some odd seconds. I'm anxiously awaiting "official" results to be posted.
PSS...final edit. I found "official" results online. I finished in 38:18...I was 129th out of 138. Ha ha. I was 9th of 11 in my age bracket. The funniest thing is that 5 of the registered "walkers" had a better time that I did! Oh well....I finished, I got a really nice t-shirt, and now I can say I've run a 5K!